What now?

Sometimes there's a moment in life in which one's initial plans don't go as expected.  As it happened to me in the past, for example.  However this time around it is not this what has happened, but merely that what I pretended to be my reality for at least the upcoming months, didnt last more than a week.     Lesson learned that I can teach or simply tell to people now?     Dreams cannot be replaced by a pale shadow of conformism.     With this I mean, that even though there might be circunstances in life in which your dreams and goals seem to be unreachable, you shouldnt try to replace them with a false sense of satisfaction, on something that deeply is just causing you disappointment.  You might fool your conscious, but you cannot fool your subconscious.

My idea of studying formally in a place once again has been shattered, as I cannot conform with what I felt during that week.  Actually, I don't want to feel the same shackles of repression that I felt during the old school years.  What will I do instead then?    study by myself, and continue contemplating life.    I'm an individual and as so, I feel happy and very, very lucky to have always got the chance to keep learning by myself.

Talking about something different.    I learned the hard way last week that doing too much exercise on a single day for a rusty body like mine can be quite harmful hehe.   In the american medicine world   HBP (High Blood Pressure) is known as the silent killer.   Well,  I believe that the real silent killer is sedentarism.   Such attitude towards life,  biggest form of alienation is much more harmful than how it is usually portrayed, moreover to be sedentary doesnt mean to be watching tv 24/7.  To be sedentary is simply the act of forgetting the use some of the parts of the body can do.     That's the main root,  then its a way downhill composed of:
1) Forgetting how to breath
2) Forgetting the inner power of the body
3) Blood circulation will become slower, heart will pump less
4)  As a tsunami, millions of cells in the body die.
5)  Is there still a way back to health?

So please next time that you think you're not sedentary, try to do a technologyless day.  Then you'll discover where you really stand.  Is it safe ground of petals, or thin ice?