sábado, 29 de septiembre de 2012

My divorce from Alchemy

For a long time I have been studying Alchemy,  having a deep interest into this ancient science/art,   both here and in the time spent in Prague, which by the way is a cradle of it.    Well, after reading Fulcanelli and overall exploring the alchemical world and the lives of many of these men,  I have decided that it isnt worth it.

Alchemists and western mystics usually attack "rationality"  the new scientific approach, and overall the secular beliefs.       But its a complete lie!   if this was true, how come they created most of the secular goverments?     the truth about Alchemists and their art, is that they're quite rational, actually have perhaps the biggest rational knowledge in the world, and so simply out of arrogance, they proclaim themselves children of Imagination and state themselves as being above good and evil. 

"As above so below they say"  yet their mind is completely splitted in duality forms, the outside "ordinary" individual that is not part of them, is condemned to be the bad guy of the story simply because he's ignorant.  Buddhism says that ignorance is the root of what is perceived as evil, this is true.. but the western art has perverted this concept, up to the point of forgetting about compassion, and seeing the ignorant people that lack education, as worthless machines that steal hair.

"Mystery of the Cathedrals"  by Fulcanelli is a very nice book from the point of explaining ancient codes.  However since the different prologues, written by many of his disciples, it becomes noticable the arrogance that fills the mind of those individuals.     As the pages go by,  this increases till the absurdity of proclaiming themselves as the chosen ones,  becoming a complete prank on the reader! How would you feel when you're reading something out of interest, and you start perceiving as if the writer was alive, and aughing at you for being an unitiated?     Yeah that's right.. an unitiated,  like the term used by Bane on the Dark Knight Rises.   I'm not a comic book fan, so I have no idea who created the concept of the League of Shadows, but whoever did it, was aware of these millenary groups that hold a huge influence on the world. Both then,  and also now.      Groups that justify their violent and uncompassionate attitude today, with supposedly the promise of a perfect tomorrow.    Doesnt matter who they erase from the road, who they manipulate, etc.  Just because there's a "greater deed"      Are such individuals wise at all in the end?  I ask myself...

Last but not least.... Are they happy?      Check any book and you'll find out that they are as unhappy as the people they condemn.      Equality, Fraternity, Liberty?        or more like Royalist lickers,  discrminators,  racists, misoginists,  and enslaved by their mind conflicts?      Turns out that in the end is more constructive to speak with a gardener or a miller, it will fill you much more,  than with these "philosophers".    

Because of these and other reasons, I have discovered that even though is interesting to study Alchemy and such subjects, it is better to do so from a merely rational point.   Why bother involving the spirit into an activity and knowledge that was built uppon the pillars of rationality itself?     While I will leave my spirit to find the knowledge, on the empiric and spontaneous smile,  the sun shining, and the birds singing. 



lunes, 24 de septiembre de 2012

Update

So its been more than a month since the last time I wrote here,  first of all I would like to give an update of what has happened in this novel called Matteo's life. 

I must mention therefore that I had my 23th birthday on  August 26th.   What can I say about being a year older?   Well that most importantly I would like year of my life to be filled with happiness, sincerity, and true love from all sources.   For me the past is gone;   I no longer dwell on the reason of why I got sick, despite this I believe I must excorcise the darkness of it through writing a novel and that's what I'm currently doing.    Sure I might be as slow as a snail,  courtersy of my cat lazyness, but certainly I'll finish this novel for my own happiness and clear future.     Concerning my health, there isnt much to tell, except that for the last month or so I had my blood pressure a bit lower than normal.   Sure, its better than having it high, but still is not so pleasant, specially when being on the gym feeling lightheadedness.
I greeted my new year on a night club.  Sure, I  didnt believe I would be going to one anytime soon, but I must admit I couldnt resist the invitation my cousin did to me.    After being there that evening, I think that is important to state how important is to achieve an equilibrium of the psyche.    Clubs and nightlife are not an ecstasy to me like in the past, but once in a while is good to cease the deep mind, the drastic thoughts, and the spiritual aspirations,  just to enjoy some hours. 

I have discovered that the only way to defeat the Black Knight of Fear is through love.    Love is the Alpha and Omega of every single thing, and the seed is always there.    

If I manage to reap and sow Love, I might find the key to my healing....