Update

So its been more than a month since the last time I wrote here,  first of all I would like to give an update of what has happened in this novel called Matteo's life. 

I must mention therefore that I had my 23th birthday on  August 26th.   What can I say about being a year older?   Well that most importantly I would like year of my life to be filled with happiness, sincerity, and true love from all sources.   For me the past is gone;   I no longer dwell on the reason of why I got sick, despite this I believe I must excorcise the darkness of it through writing a novel and that's what I'm currently doing.    Sure I might be as slow as a snail,  courtersy of my cat lazyness, but certainly I'll finish this novel for my own happiness and clear future.     Concerning my health, there isnt much to tell, except that for the last month or so I had my blood pressure a bit lower than normal.   Sure, its better than having it high, but still is not so pleasant, specially when being on the gym feeling lightheadedness.
I greeted my new year on a night club.  Sure, I  didnt believe I would be going to one anytime soon, but I must admit I couldnt resist the invitation my cousin did to me.    After being there that evening, I think that is important to state how important is to achieve an equilibrium of the psyche.    Clubs and nightlife are not an ecstasy to me like in the past, but once in a while is good to cease the deep mind, the drastic thoughts, and the spiritual aspirations,  just to enjoy some hours. 

I have discovered that the only way to defeat the Black Knight of Fear is through love.    Love is the Alpha and Omega of every single thing, and the seed is always there.    

If I manage to reap and sow Love, I might find the key to my healing....