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On Friday October 4th 2019,  almost a year ago,  I finally received my kidney transplant.  

It had been so much time on dialysis that I had almost forgotten there was possible life out of it.  One of the things I'm most proud about myself is how when I finally received the "call"   I felt serene, secure and completely relaxed.  In many previous occasions when I received "false alarms"  I felt agitated, doubtful and even fearful about the eventual surgery and the possible results of it. I see now all the evolution that occurred to me during such tempestuous times.  How in my mind and soul, the 2010's will be seen forever as times of spiritual progression and maturity.  To comprehend I wasn't missing on anything, but quite the contrary, gaining on much. 

 

Two days prior to the "call" I went with my mother to watch at the cinema  "Abominable"  .   Just as it always happens with movies, what at first glance might be seen as a kids film, it is in reality a trump card arising from the shadows of the cosmos that helps you identify where your spirit currently is.   Synchronicity is afterall part of the name of this blog that I created more than 8 years ago...     When I came home,  the song "What a Beautiful Life" by Bebe Rexha (part of Abominable's soundtrack)  kept playing in my mind.   Before closing my eyes to go to sleep, I felt an immense surge of excitement and joy coming from the depths of my heart.  It was the empircal acknowledgement that I was the happiest human being alive.    I always read that joy doesn't depend on external circunstances, but this was perhaps the first moment in my life that I recognized this directly, and mindfully, at the the moment it was happening!     So what if I was on dialysis, what if my kidney function was almost non existent at that moment?  I had my mother's, grandma's and cats' love!   I had an enrichened mind by all the places I have seen, all the people I have meet, and all the beauty I have experienced!   This was all I needed to be the happiest man on earth.  It was at that moment of Apotheosis that the universe triggered for me the miracle of my surgery materializing two days later. 

Flash forward to now, it's needless to say how so many millions of persons feel unhappy.  It has been a tough year for most, it is impossible to deny that.  In my heart the happiness remains,  combined with the healthy ambition to see more divinity of this life,  feel love,  and find in every second reasons to laugh!

It is indeed a beautiful life!